Maurice Sendak

There’s something funny…

about liking someone. The stupid feelings and the stupid heartbreak ensues. It’s worse when your best friend tells you, literally moments before you were going to say it, that she likes him too. So, you put your feelings on the back burner. She said it first… But what ever happened to letting the guy choose? We just it and manipulate every variable like it’s a formula. How is that fair to anyone? 

And she gets upset. “Why does he ignore me?” “Why does he like you better?” “Why are you guys better friends?” Because there are no messy feelings involved. I hid my feelings and I’m the only one “without” them.

I would never tell. Too much time has passed… But I still wonder. If the looks he gives me are THE LOOKS. Or when he jokingly holds my hand. When he compliments me… I’ll always wonder.